"Even if you stumble you’re still moving forward

Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Yeah
Too late
I can’t keep chasing em
I’m taking my life back
Caught in a chase
25 to life

[Verse 1]
I don’t think she understands the sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right I would’ve stayed
But I’ve already wasted over half of my life I would’ve laid
Down and died for you I no longer cry for you
No more pain bitch you
Took me for granted took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
Imma take control of this relationship
Command it, and imma be the boss of you now goddamnit
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out this much you owe me
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while I’ve stayed
Faithful all the way this is how I fucking get repaid
Look at how I dress fucking baggy sweats, go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you I ain’t heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me I deserve respect
Ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness
And I know that if I end this I’ll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase it’s time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back so don’t hold your fucking breath
You know what you’ve done no need to go in depth
I told you, you’d be sorry if I fucking left
Id laugh while you wept
Hows it feel now, yeah, funny ain’t it, you neglected me
Did me a favor although my spirit free you’ve set
But a special place for you in my heart I have kept
It’s unfortunate but it’s,

[Chorus]
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life

[Verse 2]
I feel like when I bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh
Cause that ain’t good enough you expect me to fold myself in half
Til I snap
Don’t think I’m loyal
All I do is rap
How can I moonlight on the side
I have no life outside of that
Don’t I give you enough of my time
You don’t think so do you
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I’m married to you still man I don’t know
But tonight I’m serving you with papers
I’m divorcing you
Go marry someone else and make em famous
And take away their freedom like you did to me
Treat em like you don’t need them and they ain’t worthy of you
Feed em the same shit you made me eat
I’m moving on forget you oh,
Now I’m special? Oh, I didn’t feel special when i was with you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this so many times
It’s ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I’m sick of this but in my sickness and addiction
You’re as addictive as they get
Evil as they come vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking why I can’t just walk away from
I’m addicted
To the pain, the stress, the drama
I’m drown in so I guess imma mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain’t changing my mind
I’m climbing out this abyss
You screaming as I walk out that I’ll be missed
But when you spoke to people who meant the most to you
You left me off your list

Fuck you hip-hop
I’m leaving you, my life sentence is served bitch
And it’s just

[Chorus]
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
Caught in a chase
25 to life

Trust

Have u ever wondered why there are problems in people’s lives? In the world in general? I believe it is all related to trust, or lack thereof.

People are pulling money out of the stock market, out of banks in general, due to lack of trust in the government and its agencies. People are stock piling food, toilet paper, necessities in general because they lack trust in the economy. People turn away from God because of things they cannot fully explain, causing them to lose trust in God; they begin to question His very existence.

What is trust? When do we first begin to lose trust?

Babies trust their parents will take care of them. They are born with a certain capability to trust even though they have no concept of what trust is. At what point and time does that innocence begin to unravel? Is it when they don’t receive something they need or want? Is it when they discover there is no Santa Clause, Easter Bunny or Tooth Fairy? It saddens me to think about the unnecessary lies we tell to our own children in an effort to excite them about events or natural occurrences. Are parents partially to blame for a child’s growing doubt?

I am pondering these things in an effort to discover why I lack the ability to fully trust anyone or anything. I think of all the times I have been lied to, not for my own benefit but for the benefits of others. The accumulation of lies over the course of my life has left me hardened. And I do not think this is something I am to be blamed for. I fully trust two females in my life, yet I cannot think of one male I trust with every fiber of my being. Is that because most of the people that have lied to me are male?

I love you

I’ll never leave you

I’ll never cheat on you

It will be OK

I’ll take care of you

…and so many more

These are things people do not need to hear if they are not said with 100% honesty. They are better left unsaid unless the expression is the only way to reflect ones feelings and/or intentions. But these expressions are not reassurances one can give to another for how they feel at a given moment because if they are genuine, then these feelings and intentions should last forever. And if, for example, one “falls out of love” with another than was it a genuine feeling to begin with?

Disappointments and lies are a part of life but why do they have to be?

I fear for my girls. I dread the day they are broken by a lie. I do not want them to turn out hardened.

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It’s like I’m huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I’m leaving you"
No you ain’t. Come back we’re running right back.
Here we go again
It’s so insane cause when it’s going good, it’s going great
I’m Superman with the wind at his back, she’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad it’s awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped
Who’s that dude? I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her, I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you’re with ‘em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit ‘em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills you used to get ‘em
Now you’re getting fucking sick of looking at ‘em
You swore you’d never hit ‘em; never do nothing to hurt ‘em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push, pull each other’s hair, scratch, claw, hit ‘em
Throw ‘em down, pin ‘em
So lost in the moments when you’re in them
It’s the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you’re best to go your separate ways
Guess if they don’t know you ‘cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is
You’re the same as me
But when it comes to love you’re just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn’t you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
I told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time. There won’t be no next time
I apologize even though I know its lies
I’m tired of the games I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im’a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I’m just gonna

[Chorus - Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie